Still Waiting

Friday, March 18, 2005

these few days i've been slacking around.. and all energy i used to have in my secondary school days is draining out of me already... have been so restless and tired these few days.. so lazy that i cant bear to do any exercise or any housework.. haiz.. seems to be breaking out in cold sweat very often... this is a TERRIBLE sign of getting TOO fat.. hmm.. guess i'd really have to pick myself up already... stop thinking abt him so much and get on to my work..

yeah.. 8pm is approaching..what the hell...haiz..tuition tuition..zzz perhaps i should really look on the brightest side of life to pick myself up ONCE again..ahhh... tmr i'll be going to jurong swimming complex to SWIM!!! finally god... yes.. i've been dying to get a tan as well as lose some weight.. haiz.. so tmr will be a good day huh..yeah right..

but i'm afraid the swimming costume would burst cos i'm too fat already...

oh yeah.. i chanced upon audrina's friendster profile today.. so i was like.. WOW!! so many activities?!? yeah.. i was like her before too.. but now.. it seems like i have nothing much to do already.. tts y i'm becoming more n more restless le.. n more PIG le.. seriously la.. i need some action man.. have been procrastinating for the past few weeks..

the night before yesterday.. i had a terrible nightmare.. it had been months since i had such a horrible nightmare.. still remember the last one was on the day of social studies o lvl examination... that night i dreamt that my sister hanged herself to death ok.. i walked into our study room.. to find her hanging herself there.. and then my parents came in and they were shocked la, apparently..the scene is really traumatizing ok.. and it haunted me for almost a month...and that morning i cried n cried, n cant even bear to go to the kitchen alone.. yeah.. at that period of time(a few weeks like that) , i had been dreaming how my sister died.. thats why that particular nightmare had an even greater impact on me.. ahh.. whatever la.. forget abt it.. hmm tts all for today i guess..

goodbye!!!

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